late night ramblings

found this picture on my mom's computer. 11.1.08. my water had just broke. just look at the smile on that woman's face. she.had.no.idea. what was about to take place. nor that there was an 8 lb. 10 oz. baby within that bulge of a belly.

i'm sitting here at my home in the country. my mother's dryer is tumbling a batch of morgan's clothes i didn't have time to launder before we hit the pavement early this morning. the country wind is blowing the blind strings back and forth, gently tapping the white molding above the kitchen sink.

alas, for a sickie like myself, it is much too late to be up. yet, here i am. blogging.

last night, jared lay beside me in bed as i tossed back and forth. i couldn't breathe. my chest was tight and my nose just up and stopped working altogether. i told him i was dying.

boy, if he had a nickel for every time he's heard that before.

the flu crept up tuesday night and knocked me clear down for all of yesterday. consequently, his hunting plans changed. he bought me pepperoni pizza and rented a movie because i told him it would make me feel better.

and it did.

having him near me was the best. i love when he is near.

tonight, he is outdoors. and i am here.

still sick.
still stuffed up and coughy.

very much needing a husband to tuck me in.