November twenty-ninth: Feeling loved

Tuesday evening, I sat on my bed next to a sprawled-out Danny boy. His favorite thing is to chew on his toes, and when he doubles up, he has more rolls than I can count. He's pretty much edible. In a fast, sweeping moment I became so aware of how I am the one he loves most. When he smiles for me, his whole body smiles, and his eyes twinkle like stars. It's quite magical to take in, and it always melts my heart.

It is no slight thing to be a mother, or to experience the vast span of emotion that comes with it. It's more sparkling than anything I've ever felt before. Such feelings teach me that the entire creation process is intended and eternal. And rather perfect. I cannot tell you how it feels to be so loved.